I think the lesson Heavenly Father is trying to teach me is patience.  Patience with accepting that HIS time is the right time, and patience with my own body.  I had a pain pill two hours ago, and my pain level right now is so high that there are tears in my eyes. Either the pill didn't work, or my pain level has increased to the point that this is all the relief I can get. Movement is excruciatingly painful and slow.

We're going out today to Red Lobster, and I'm almost tempted not to go.  I know I'll kick myself later if I don't, and all my friends are going, so it should get my attention off my body for a while.

I think  my best bet right now is to pray a lot and keep very busy. 

Saw the pain Dr today.  They're referring me to a neurologist.  They think I have Trigeminal Neuralgia.  My friend swan has that and she's in constant excruciating pain.  It's progressive...if this is only the beginning of what it's going to be, I don't know how I'll cope. I'll find a way though, because I know Heavenly Father won't throw more at me than I can handle.

Sometimes, though, when the pain is bad, it's hard to remember that.  I'll post more about it after I see the neurologist.

I had a blessing last night and I'm feeling better today...still in pain, but it's far more  bearable than it has been.

I'm still trying to get my act together...I'm doing much better than I had been, but there's so much room for improvement. I'm only human after all.

I thank HF, Jesus and the HS every day for having my back...I KNOW I couldn't do this without them.

I'm very lucky to have landed where I have...physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.

My mind works strangely, and I tend to think 'out loud'.  I wonder about lots of things that there are no answers to in this life, and I do a lot of idle speculation. I don't build any straw boats, but I AM a curious kitten.

I have no idea who this journal will go to, or even if anyone will ever read it, but it's much easier to type than it is to write, so here I am, out on the net for everyone to see.

If anyone reads this...feel free to comment, although I will filter out spam.